I always seem to write these things late at night... and I've probably said that before but oh well... Anyways. I've just been thinking how weird life is. I realized the relationship I was in wasn't working out and that it had no future, so that's over with, a friend that I've had since I was in 8th grade I haven't talked to since November, I feel like my brother can't talk to me anymore because I'm not home. I dunno. It's funny how they say things always change and how you don't really believe them, but it's true. Change is the only constant in life. I'm not going to go on and ramble like I usually do, I don't have the energy. All I want to say is I wish things didn't always have to change. I wish I could find a relationship that will for once work out. I wish that I could talk to my old friend without it being extremely awkward and her not hating me. I wish my brother would call me up anytime and just talk to me like I was right there. I even wish I was home right now with my family. But I suppose that's all you can do is make your wish that things were different and then go on with the way the world is now and just make the best of everything.

I have to say I find it a little odd that I always write my blog entries really late at night... or I guess early in the morning if you look at it that way. This one hopefully wont be too long since I just wanna say a few things. Life is just weird, it's sooo weird! It's crazy the changes it has for you. I sometimes feel like I'm on a rollar coaster and I can't get off. I find it sad that with all that I have in my life, from my family to my home, even the clothes I wear and the food I can eat anytime I want, that at times I find myself unhappy.

I really try to appreciate what I have. I mean compared to most of the world, I'm rich! But it's just sometimes hard to see the good in life. Those are the time we just need to stop and smell the roses as they say. Our lives are just so busy now a days, it's hard to just go out and enjoy nature, but I feel that it is those times we really get the sense of God and we really get to appreciate all we have. I just look at my problems, and I mean the big problems I seem to have and then I look at what other people would call big problems. I'm not going to bed hungry, in fact I have to watch what I eat so I don't gain weight. I have a roof over my head and don't need to worry about whether or not I'll be cold or wet at night. I have shoes without holes to where everyday, in fact I have multiple pairs of shoes. Things like running water I take for granted and I don't think people ever really stop and think about what life would be like without those things. We in America are just so used to having those things.

This country has become a country of people who think they deserve everything. People think they can just have whatever they want when they want it. Whatever happened to waiting and saving for things you wanted? What ever happened to hard work? The constitution says we have the right to the pursuit of happiness. That doesn't mean it's all just going to be given to us, that just because we are born here means we should have everything we want. People need to work for it, put in a little elbow grease. Without hard work and effort, how can you be happy with your life? If you just get everything you ever wanted without putting in some effort, are you really happy? I don't think so. My dad tells me it's not about the end result, it's about the journey. It's those paths we choose that manke a difference, that teach up who we are and what we can do. Life may be like a rollar coaster, but without the downs there would be no ups. Without failure there could be no success. Without hard work, there can be no victory and satisfaction.